I'm a Loser, baby.....and I'm okay with that!

We just had our second to last weigh in today for the BWLC.  Missed that post?  You can read about it here.  I'm positive I've lost the challenge.  I've been stuck at the same weight for the last 3 weeks.  I probably could have done more.  I didn't exercise regularly enough.  I need to get back on the running bandwagon.  There are a few races I want to register for and I am currently in no shape to run either of them.  However, I am SO bored with the treadmill and the stupid weather here in AZ won't cooperate enough for me to go running outside without passing out from heat stroke. 

I also maybe could've cut back on the baking.  But there is something about September that just flips a baking switch inside of me.  I've made cakes, cookies, Vanishing Banana Bread and Double Chocolate Chip Zucchini Bread (recipe to come soon).  Baking itself isn't so bad, it's the actual act of inhaling the baked goods that is no bueno for a weight loss challenge.  I think the problem is simply that I stopped caring. 

I will probably always have 10 more pounds that I could lose.  Do I really want to spend the rest of my life constantly trying to lose those last 10 pounds?  Is getting back to my wedding weight even possible?  Is it really that important?  I finally came to the realization that the answer to all of the above is NO. 

This body of mine, with it's extra 10-15 pounds (I fluctuate, we all do) has carried and borne 3 beautiful children.  It is healthy and strong.  With it, I am able to exercise, work, and take care of my family and my home.  I have finally come to a point of accepting my body the way it is, in all of it's stretch marked glory and being grateful for it.  Dave loves it just the way it is, so why do I keep trying to change it?
Stretch marks, scars, cellulite, and wrinkles I welcome you all.  I've earned every one of you and I wear you proudly!  The world doesn't necessarily view that as beauty, but I do, Dave does and really in the end, isn't that all that matters.

So, congrats to my Texas sister-in-law Sue.  Pretty sure she's taking the prize and she deserves it.  Her hubby Gary is a baker/cook extraordinaire.  She must have a will of steel to resist the many temptations that he probably concocted. 


Bravo Sue!  You will look absolutely gorgeous in your mother-of-the-bride dress.  Wish I could be there!  Best wishes, much love, and well done!

BWLC - A Exercise in Futility?

Gosh I hope not!

BWLC stands for Bergeson Weight Loss Challenge.  It's a contest we started as a family at the end of June, beginning of July.  All those who wanted to compete put money in the pot (except for the Young'un, who was either too broke or too moral to "bet" on her weight loss.  Good for us; she's dropping weight like Mary Kate Olsen, Bad for her; she didn't contribute, so she can't win the moolah!)

The contest is 3 months long, so we're already a month in.  The finish line is the Young'un's wedding in October, to the stud standing behind her.

I was a mess in July.  I would do good for a few days and then I would binge on everything yummy.  Plus we had two birthdays and I was having a hard time getting through the day without my drink of choice .

I recommitted at the beginning of this month and have been doing South Beach.  So far so good, but man I miss carbs.  I just saw a recipe for Salted No Bake Caramel Cookies.  I was SO freaking close to running into the kitchen and making them ON THE SPOT!  I really, truly had to restrain myself and trust me when I say that I am making a list of everything I want to make, or places I want to go after this diet is OVER! 

So far, I'm down 5 pounds.  I would like to lose 5 to 10 more.  (Dave says 5, I say 10)  Honestly, my true motivator is the money.  Just ask me about the beauty contest I entered for scholarship money.  I got 1st runner-up and 750 buckaroos.  Would I have done that normally?  No way in hell.  Involve money?  I'm in!
 
I'm pretty content with how I look right now.  Sure I would like to get more tone, but who wouldn't.  I've been working on that too, but this contest isn't about muscle definition, it's about weight loss and I've got some serious competitors that I'm going up against.

So wish me luck.  Dave and I need a new lawn mower and a shed, so that the new mower doesn't get ruined by rain like our old one.  Seriously, look at our backyard:

It's a freaking jungle back there.  If I let the Beast play out there I'm pretty sure he would get lost.......hmmm.......sorry visions of a desert baby raised by lizards made me lose my train of thought. 

So as you can see we are in desperate need of a lawn mower.  Pray for me (or Dave, the odds are definitely in our favor since we're both in the contest), send positive weight loss thoughts my way and I will continue to do my best to stay away from bad carbs and sugar.

This sucks soooo bad.

How much longer?